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So, after days of massive headaches, ive finally come to a conclusion to quit the course.

There is no interest, i feel like im dragging myself to uni every day.

Coping is fine, i've always had that kind of mindset anyways. During school, and during Alvls.

' Just study, sit for the exams, do well and be done with it. Then you wont see it anymore. '

But i guess this kinda mentality wont bring me any benefit to my future.

Because there's no such thing as 'being done with it anymore'.

You live with it as a source of your income, which will gradually become your source of life.

(We need money for survival after all).

It's only been 1 month.

And the only thing that makes my heart ache so much by leaving this course is,

I'LL REALLY REALLY MISS MY UNI FRENS!!! T_T

I'll miss Uncle James! And Siva! the most.

I'll miss bullying James, laughing at him when he's in pain, laughing at him when he loses in the PSP games, basically laughing at him. And competing with each other to see who will reach home first. And planning how to kutip your mayat. Come to think of it, our friendship is really weird.. hahaa.. You're like a second Jessica. Need to argue with you non-stop.

But you've been a good friend! You've been a bundle of help, and admittedly i was kinda afraid of you in the beginning. But you're really fun to hang around with - and i'll really really miss you. Take care.. keep in touch.

I'll miss you too Siva! And your bright laughter! Hahaa.. is it corny to say that.. haha but his laugh is contagious.. And your sense of humor! You're really really funny.. we've only known each other for a month.. Sad. I'll miss all of your jokes.. AND YOUR TOSAI! Hahaa... Take care too... keep in touch.

To the rest, tho' we havent really got much opportunities to bond that much yet, i'll miss you guys too! I cant help but wonder how it would be like if we had become closer.. But i think the heartbreak will be bigger lol.. Take care Praga! And.... the rest. Sorry fail to catch your names ^^;; i noticed we just immediately jumped into a conversation without getting proper introductions -_-. Nevertheless those conversations were short-lived but fun. TAKE CARE!

Ok im done talking.

So now im slacking my life away, thinking which should be the right choice for me.

Dont wanna waste more money -_-.

;( Times are bad.

My brother has developed a backache in Australia.

Apparently he couldnt even move, and is due for an X-ray.

Mum's worried to death, and maybe going there soon.

Scary, hope kor gets well soon!